TMS Reader: Mat Educated Tak Semestinye Mat Gentleman
From: _____________________
Sent: 08 March 2010 22: 56PM
To: knowyourmats@hotmail.com
Hey TMS,
This would be my first time being indiscreet about what has been going on in my life, since I’ve broken up with my ex-boyfriend. I am indeed ashamed at what has been done and I’m trying my best to avoid these situations from now on, but I think the best way that I can get myself back up is by being back together with my ex-boyfriend because I do feel lost without him in my life. I know, I’m so pathetic, but I can’t help it. It’s just me, I guess L :(
I got to know some guys around 1month after me and my ex-boyfriend broke up. I had just entered a new schooling environment and I had a crush on this hot biker guy, and my feelings were reciprocated. (I was happy of course, hehe!) He had added me on Facebook and taken the initiative to FB chat with me and then asked me for my MSN address and then my number. It was a nice feeling because he was the type of guy that you would ditch even your boyfriend for, let alone ex-boyfriend, and here he was, wooing me and meeting me under the block just to have small talk even though it was late at night and we had school the next morning. Then came one night when he asked me out to hang out by the beach. We were talking as usual when I realized that we were sitting really close to each other, maybe too close for comfort, and it felt as if we were already like a couple. It was a romantic situation, you know under the stars and all, and, yes, we kissed. It became really passionate, and we stopped only after we realized that there were people coming to sit around us. So we went home, and that’s about it. We discussed about it when we reached under my block, and we both felt awkward about it because it had been only, what, a week since we got to know each other? But I guess we brushed it aside so as not to feel too awkward especially in school.
We did meet up under the block as usual after that and the usual talks, or maybe sharing studying tips and whatnot. No kissing, just hugging when we met up and left, that’s it. Then one night, I don’t know, we were sitting face-to-face with each other, really close, yet again, and somehow yeah, we kissed. I felt like I had to stop it, but I couldn’t. It was just too nice to stop, and it came to a point that he asked whether we should proceed atas block. I took about 5minutes explaining to him about why we shouldn’t do it because we were still getting to know each other and it would just sabotage the new friendship we had but he was just giving me the puppy face all the while, and yeah, I said yes in the end. I know, stupid of me. But what was I supposed to do? I was fresh out of a relationship and he made me feel like I was loved - liked in the least, but I felt special after someone had dumped me.
The next day, I realized it was all a mistake. He had went out of Singapore for his personal activities, and being someone that he would sms often throughout the day, you would think that he would have at least messaged a simple “Hey, I’m going to Malaysia. You take care”, right? But, nope. He did not. I was thinking of him and what we did the night before. I felt so used! So stupid that I agreed to it. When he did sms me the next day, I told him all that I had felt and what he did was just reply a simple “Sorry.” I was so angry because he did not try to meet me up under the block and probably gift me with a flower or something to make it up, but no…
Sighs. I guess, I deserved it. I did not know how to say “No.” to a jerk like him. Little did I know that a guy who would have been accepted by my family way easier than my ex-boyfriend (just because he has a higher level of education and hence more stability in the future, according to my family) would be less gentlemanly and less moral than my ex-boyfriend.
Oh gosh, our reader here seems to have gone through a lot! My suggestion is that, everyone has to be both mentally and physically prepared before entering a relationship, especially after a bad break up. Socialising after a break up is fine, really but there has to be boundaries and limits to it. To our reader, hope you're feeling better now. At least now you know how to differentiate the bad and the good guys. Remember, those with good education doesn't mean that they're morally upright :)
Sekian, Wasalam (Because chekgoos are polite and they respect other people, good or bad),
Chekgoo Bedah
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